Eggs, Chocolate, and Tombs!

It's the beginning of the Easter season! In 40 days from now the Lord Jesus Christ will be Risen!!!!! I love Easter! It's a season of beginnings and new life! Without Easter we have nothing! I am so thankful that I know the Lord and His son! If I didn't I really think I would be lost over the last two days. Right now I am enjoying some gospel songs while writing trying to keep my mind quiet and calm.

I recieved my new classes for next term and I have class every day... ugh at 8am until at 4 pm... Long days. I am just hoping I can get through the last term. I am hoping I do this with as little stress as possible. I think I will be able to manage.

I have so many thoughts on my mind right now. Unfortunately, I don't feel like sharing them. But God does know what I am thinking and I am praying he will get me through this safely and harmlessly.

I am so glad before my stress hit me that I learned to pray more. I pray all the time now, it feels like. I pray in my car mostly and pray about everything! But my favorite prayer is my night time prayer. I think it's my favorite because it's a thanksgiving prayer. I feel sometimes that people forget to be thankful to such a wonderful God who loves us so much and provides everything we need. Thank you Lord for everything... good things to ease the pain and suffering, the bad things for helping us grow and change, and the love and blessings you have given us freely!

I finished my last clinical of this semester today! I really enjoyed our OB clinicals! A student passed out in the OR today watching a c-section! The best part was she passed out before they even made a cut!

I got to take a patient who didn't speak English! It was hard to communicate but with the five words of Spanish I know we figured it out :)! I also got to spend a few moments with the babies!

I love holding babies! I love babies! lol! It was very nice to sit in the Nursery and hold this tiny little baby! I know now why people want kids! I'll just stick to cuddling others for now though!

On another note I think I am finally getting over some type of bug! On Monday I was really sick. I was throwing up and I had GI issues. (belly problems) Then on Tuesday I felt better. On Wednesday I was feeling really good! Then Yesterday I was running up my stairs every 4 minutes. Today I feel a little better but my lower back hurts pretty bad. But I do feel better! I think sleeping has really helped.

Well, I just felt bad about not having anything to really write about. Hopefully tomorrow I will have more to speak of. I was thinking of posting my paper that I am going to write. We will see! Until then, sorry for the short little update that's not much fun!

My Bucket List

I decided to write out a bucket list because I feel like it! I hope you enjoy! (They are not in any kind of order)

1. Go Indoor Skydiving
2. Go to California
3. Go to Canada
4. Work in Labor and Delivery
5. Work in Fertility Research
6. Become a Mommy
7. Learn how to ballroom dance
8. Swim in the ocean
9. Do mission work
10. Get my PhD
11. Be apart of a Flash Mob
12. Learn to drive on ice
13. learn to jitterbug
14. write a book/short story and get it published
15. design my dream home
16. learn how to be a balloon sculpter
17. Draw a really cool picture
18. teach a class
19. be an inspiration
20. write a song and sing it for people

What's on your bucket list?

Just a venting Rant!

I am so sick and tired of trying to please everyone when no one ever really cares if you please them or not. All people want to do is get things for themselves! I am tired of people giving me excuses of why they can't hang out or why this or why that! I am sick and tired of it! I am a good person and I do everything I can to help people out most the time and what do I have to show for it? I sit alone whenever my husband is not home waiting on my cell phone to ring and I get nothing! People say they are my friends but I doubt it 100%! I am tired of reaching out to other people and shut down because of them. I guess I am doomed to live my life as a loner doing everything for everybody and spend all my time while my husband is at work by myself. What great friends! I am so frustrated right now at everyone that it's ridiculous! So, if you are my friend don't give me excuses why we can't hang out! Just because I am married doesn't mean I want to spend ALL of my time with my husband! I love him and all but I need a break from him every once in a while! Which brings me to cleaning the house! I am tired of being the only one who cleans the house! I have stopped cleaning for the past 3 weeks in hopes that my husband would help pick up some of the slack and go figure nothing has happened! It never does! I am fed up with everyone in life! On top of these feelings I was super sick yesterday! No one cared except my husband. He finally went out got me some stuff to try to make me feel better (which it do) but no one called me to check on me like I do them and I am sick of being shunned by "friends". I just want to know what I did to make people stop contacting me. I miss my friends and I miss spending time with them. I don't know what to do. :'(